hello xanga. been a while.
you know the times that when clearly you're trying to live on life with all the crap that's happened and then more pile up and you keep struggling to keep going on? well my pile is ( name better left unmentioned ) should get a clue when to keep it's BIG GAPPING MOUTH SHUT. so, for example, we all kno A + B = C. it's been proven. we all learn this in kindergarten. now let's say, keep in mind the abc, something comes along and says " you know what, i dont care what your kindergarten classes teach A + B =/= C ". ok so in a NORMAL life, we could just prove that it wrong and well laugh in it's face. but this it's different, not you're normal out of the blue it that after proven wrong, learns after that mistake. this it's a whole complete . . . my category for that it would be a TUMOR. YUP! let's call this it a tumor. now as we everyone knoes tumor's are bad. they kill you, eventually. so in lamest terms, this tumor of an it is going to be the death of me 1 day. for whoever is still on xanga, i kno that you'll all offer me prayer, etc and i wanna thank you all for it but i'm pretty sure that it wont work until someone outside of her circle or anyone besides me confronts my tumor and tell's em " you're killing him. everything you've done, is only making his life worse. ". so i would like to ask right now, anyone that knoes me well enough, would like to be that candidate to confront my tumor and tell it to shut up until it knoes what the hell it's doing. now i've only had 2 serious relationships with 2 different people whom i love and still love to this day, and i've revealed a life plan that i would love to stick to. now that plan would be great and usually i can still keep on track, up until you guessed it! the tumor strikes again. and then my plan is just burning to ashes. i dont think i have any strength left to keep fixing things so i can keep on my track anymore.
